The Swirl

I hate to hear people talk about how many medications they are on. It just sounds sad, and it hurts more to hear this type of talk when it comes from my own mouth. A couple (few?) months ago, I stopped taking Aderall. I'm not going into the boring and worn-out reasons, just telling you so you know. Now, I can feel what I call "the swirl" returning to my brain. The swirl comes in slowly, and picks up speed over time. It starts with a main thought, then spirals into several smaller thoughts on the same subject. I become very creative, and imagine many new ideas for paintings, books, career paths, etc. The problem is, the swirl giveth and taketh away. I watch those great ideas fly about, then not so much fade away, as just be overlapped by another. Eventually, my head is full of many layers of overlapping ideas, and nothing has been done with any of them. I don't know which is worse, to take the drug and wake up on Saturday thinking about something I was supposed to do at work on Friday, or to not take the drug, and sit at work on Tuesday thinking about what I'm going to do on Sunday? Either way, at this point, I have decided to drop more into this little blog space in the meanwhile. You know (if you have read any of this crap here) that this has been a place for me to put little things I see or imagine up, and find out what you think about them. I would not call it a traditional blog site, where I tell you how I feel that day, and for some reason you come back each day to read about it. I have never understood that type relationship. But, I will post more often, with less emphasis on funny pictures/stories in the future. I'm not trying to "bring down the room" and turn this thing serious, just trying not to ignore it so much for fear that I will not entertain. This will be fun- watch and try to determine when and where I break down and "go back on the drug" as far as how the style changes. Until then, I just realized that I AM at work, and should probably do something.